Yes, it’s one of those days where nothing makes sense at all and I feel so stuck in a darned rut that I don’t know how to get out of. Seriously. Today was tilled with talks of the apocalypse and rapture and to be honest, I wouldn’t have cared less if it were true. That’s how stuck in a rut I am right about now. Frustrating, right?
What’s weird is that there is technically no reason for me to feel this stuck…after all…so many things are falling into place for me. Well, yeah, I suppose that my career change (stop me before I decide to shift to something new again…like…errr…plumbing…or motorhome repairs…or apple picking anywhere but in the land down under ) has really caused a major shift in my understanding of my world can be a trigger for all of this. But but but…enough already. I don’t wanna be stuck in this rut anymore. I’m so tired of everything, so tired of my routine (but heck, I don’t wanna do anything new naman), so tired of complaining about being tired….sigh.
The doubts, the insecurities, the feeling of being lost…it’s getting to me. I want an out. Like now.