On Plans, Changes, Growth and Progress.

...the plan for my last calendar year....

For my birthday this year, I came up with a list of 31 things I wanted to be able to do within the year. Tonight it dawned on me that I just crossed the 6th month mark since then and, given my whole life reassessment process right now, I decided to take a quick look at my list and mark my progress…

I must say, the list is kinda surprising! Surprising in the sense that one, I don’t remember writing most of them and secondly, how much they answer many of my questions today. To some degree, it kinda is VERY freaky how as early as then God (oh, yes, I have decided to stop calling it the Universe giving me signs, but to claim that it is indeed God’s way of showing me His plans) was talking to me already and I guess, like always, I wasn’t listening too well.

So…how has my progress been. Let’s take a look, shall we:

  1. I pray for more patience, despite my constant quip about patience being a virtue I can often live without. I think I am making progress with this, and I have to thank my dearest friend Pia for teaching me this. I still lose it every now and then, but in many, many ways, she reminds me of this a lot. For one, I have learned to hold my tongue better (and for me that is a true testament of patience, as anyone who knows me will attest to! Whenever I get impatient with someone, he/she is bound to hear something). Also, I have learned to let little things slide, especially those that I have no control over…yes, I am more patient with people’s lack of consideration for others and the like (such as parking in front of the gate haha). But like I said I still slip up…and rant and vent when necessary…but more than anything, I’ve learned to be at peace with things I cannot change and to just be still, to listen and to just breathe.
  2. I wish for a new teeny-tiny laptop :-) Much as Apple in it’s cherry red shell case will always be my first love when it comes to gadgets (unless it’s daddy of a computer a.k.a an iMac becomes mine!) I would love to have one of those small laptops that I can lug around wherever I go. Plus it comes with a battery that still charges!!! (Any sponsors? :-)
  3. I hope I can complete my 30-movie in the year goal. So far it seems on track! I’m up to movie number 13 already! Hmmm….since this is a list of 31, perhaps I should make it a 31-movie goal too :-) As of today, I’m at 36!
  4. I will lose weight! I have to. I can’t live like this anymore. And the magic number is 21 pounds so far!!! Woot!!!
  5. I will try to successfully complete a Project 365! I have not yet decided where, but expect my first post later on in the day.
  6. I hope to write something in print this year, as in paper-or-magazine-type-print. Not that online publishing isn’t as rewarding, but since I’m doing that regularly, I would also like to see it in paper. Check! And yes, the person who hates research is part of a paper that got published in a psych journal. Yup…a journal. Mwahaha.
  7. I hope to be able to go to the beach with Bubba at least once this year. Although it was not the full-fledged trip I would have wanted, Bubba and I went to Punta Fuego. Sadly, he couldn’t swim much due to some illogical rule.
  8. I will lessen my cramming behaviors! Promise. Oh, lessen doesn’t mean eliminate, okay? CHECK!!!! Again, full credit for this goes to Pi 🙂 I still have my pending clinic reports though, but those kinda happened before my change in behavior haha…but when it comes to school, I have to say I’m doing pretty good with it.
  9. I hope to end my 31st year with a savings of at least 31K. And for an impulsive shopper, compulsive spender like me, that’s a big step.
  10. I want to increase my Starbucks collection by at least 5 new additions this year. Thanks to Tita Oys who’s birthday gift allowed me to get a whole set of tumblers (the one’s with the drinks’ names), plus Bee, Trina, Rubz, Tina, and Angie, I have 9 new additions so far.
  11. I hope to get involved in a new project this year. What, I don’t know yet. Last year I had my Autism Awareness project, but given the time constraints I have now, I wasn’t able to start something yet. While this is not as grand as my Autism Awareness Project last year, I am glad to have had the chance to support both the Real Love Project for Kythe and the Beauty Shop Stop Human Trafficking campaigns.
  12. I want a fantabulous point and shoot camers :-) Yes, I know I have an SLR…but having one of those great P&S cameras would still be great.Ooh…Sammy is just the ♥.
  13. I will try to build up the confidence to dance.
  14. I hope to be able to go on a self-retreat again soon. hmmm….does my trip to Tagaytay count for this? I’m not so sure so I won’t cross it out first.
  15. I want to find time to enjoy the simple pleasures in life.
  16. I hope to be able to cultivate more friendships with fellow Bloggers :-) I think the fact that my other blog, Fat Girl No More was named one of the Top Ten Emerging Influential Blogs for 2010 counts as saying I’ve done this?
  17. I wish my old friends and I will also be able to get together more often.
  18. I wanna attend more events that I can blog about!
  19. I will try to keep my room as clean as I can manage to do so.
  20. I hope to be able to effectively balance things I want to do and things I need to do.
  21. I will try to be more flexible when it comes to dealing with other people. This one is a work in progress….but I’d like to believe I’ve learned how to stretch, compromise and take chances with this in the past 6 months.
  22. I pray for more understanding and a more open mind when it comes to things that I do not know. OH YES! I never was really the type to pray at night, but now, I do…a WHOLE LOT. And I do owe this a lot to someone who reminds me constantly just by being the way she is to pray, not in the “religious”  way, but in a more spiritual, soulful way.
  23. I hope to be less judgmental and crucial of people. Again, work in progress 🙂
  24. I will lessen my tendency to fan the proverbial flames of gossip. I think I’m doing this pretty well…I no longer reply to controversial messages, I don’t leave little hints and pahapyaw comments….
  25. I wanna go to the spa! Not just a home massage, but the whole spa treatment :-) I have to thank the Philippine Online Chronicles for this….who would have imagined a writing assignment would have fulfilled this for me?!?
  26. I will work on getting to know my students better this year, because I know this makes me a better teacher. YES! I actually have done this!!!
  27. I will waste less and make sure I bring alternative bags for groceries more consistently.
  28. I want a Neutrogena Wave!!! But I still refuse to buy it myself hehehehe. Thank you Ninang!
  29. I will spend more time with Bubba. Fridays are Mommy Mode days 🙂 and we walk a whoooole lot now…hence the weight loss!
  30. I hope to expand my social horizons more this year by trying to overcome my being shy (even though people don’t believe mahiyain ako!)
  31. I hope to set up 2 new blogs this year. I just got to get my time management skills down pat! Set up done, management…um….still working on it!

Ooooh…I’ve crossed out more than I imagined I would!!! 🙂

But, what got me with the original post were the first two points which read:

For one, earlier this month my colleague Tina and I were talking and I think we both came to the conclusion that this is the last year we (well at least me) will be teaching in preschool. I love my preschool job, don’t get me wrong, but I feel I’m getting too old for the job. It’s way too difficult for me to be bright and sunny so early in the morning!!! Plus my back and my legs can’t take more of this squatting!!! If ever I do stay in the preschool biz, I suppose it would have to be more of supervision or something like that. UM…earlier this evening, I wrote about how I knew it was right…and that I had tendered my resignation.

Secondly, I am working on the shift to pursuing my dream to be a writer. I am eternally grateful for a serendipitous Plurk I came across one day asking if anyone would be interested in writing for a health and wellness channel. Little did I know that this would lead to finding my way to another one of my many life’s passions. One thing I would like to work on soon would be a book, either for kids or about depression. What exactly I haven’t figured out yet, but hopefully I make strides in this as well this year. AGAIN…UM….last weekend, I went on a road trip and at the end of it I received a message from deep within me that I was to “to write my story of sadness and to tell the tale of gifts from darkness”.

I may never have been a big believer of signs when I wrote my birthday post, but so many things have happened since then, the biggest of which being an unexpected detour and a meeting of kindred spirits, that it is now impossible for me not to heed the signs so clearly out there for me. And for a change, I have decided to heed them and no longer struggle to find the answers to why they happen. In the end, I have learned to simply believe and claim these for me.

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  • #1
    Posted by Janette Toral on October 19th, 2010 at 6:44 am

    Congratulations on the progress you are making Ria! =)

  • #2
    Posted by yapatoots on October 19th, 2010 at 8:29 am

    thank you Ms. Janette 🙂

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