The past few days have tapped greatly into my insecurities once again. Well, to be fair, I was affirmed greatly by the recognition of my accomplishments, whether by myself or by others, but I can’t help but feel a bit insecure about the fact that I still have not completed my masters degree. Prior to these past few days, I had resolved the issue already and had felt content with the direction my life is going. However today, I feel so inadequate and unsure of myself. Pagod lang ata ito.
Archive for April, 2010
Today was a long and extremely tiring day and it was getting to me. Not only did I get stuck in horrible traffic all day long, I also had to wait forever for the shuttle to fill up so I can head home. I finally made it to my destination and as soon as I got off the shuttle, the rain poured. I had with me 3 ginormous bags and no umbrella. Fun, right? So while trying to unwind, I checked out my FB account and saw something that finally made me smile:
My ultimate favorite character, Carrie Bradshaw is back and she is still fabulous! SATC2 will be shown in theaters on June 2 and I ABSOLUTELY AM COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS till I get to see these fabulous girls once again. Sarah Jessica Parker will be reprising her role as Carrie, as always! The film will still have the whole caboodle of characters back too: Samantha, Charlotte, Miranda, Mr. Big and from the trailer I saw, even Aidan.
June 2 please come now! Bye-bye bad mood!!!
When I was younger, looking into mirrors was not really one of my favorite things to do. I was always very self-conscious about the way I looked, especially beside my siblings and cousins who were always so much fairer and slimmer than myself. However, as years went by, I learned to appreciate myself more and I became less critical of myself, especially when I had lost weight.
I still tend to have a love-hate relationship with mirrors but it borders more on the love side lately. I figured hating the way I look won’t really solve anything, right?
Before my sister relocated, she would always tease me about the way I can’t stop myself from pausing in front of a mirror to glance at my reflection. She says I have a funny way of looking at myself when I do so, and that she catches me frown at myself at the full-length mirror in our room when I pass by.
Full-length mirrors are still iffy for me though…I still haven’t learned to appreciate my full-length image. On the other hand, hand mirrors or those antique venetian mirrors that hang in walls are kinder to me Given my goals of self-affirmation, I try to look at myself and just appreciate one or two things about myself. Lately my favorite thing has been my hair
I was recently browsing a website about Venetian mirrors and learned a very interesting fact: the invention of mirrors emerged from people looking at their reflections from pools of water. I never realized that’s where the idea came from. Nowadays mirrors have evolved to include a whole range of designs and styles. An added trivia I learned from that website: many of the best hand-crafted mirrors are made in the Philippines. This makes me even more proud to be Filipino
Earlier this month I got to attend the iBlog 6, a yearly convention/summit centered on blogging and online marketing. I had initially wanted to attend both days but due to deadlines and other circumstances, I missed the first day, which was said to be quite interesting, particularly for monetizing and maximizing the earning potential of your blog. Nonetheless, while the line up for the second day seemed more basic, I still decided to go.
I am really glad I did because I learned more about blogging and how I really want to do this even more. Blogging for me started only as an online journal for me to release my emotions and to rant about things. Now it has evolved a lot. I will admit that some of my sites have lost a bit of personality because I am exploring monetizing potentials, but I still feel this does not make me less of a blogger. Whether it is writing a personal post or a sponsored one, I still try my best to be true to who I am, and that’s something I took with me from the iBlog 6.
Other insights, opinions and realizations from the summit are as follows:
I’m a big gadget addict. I love how these little contraptions work and whether or not I really need it, I feel a compulsion to buy it. Irrational, I know, but many times I can’t help it! Take for example when hand held PC’s first came out. Even if I didn’t know much about it, I went and bought one. I never regretted it, to be fair, but I didn’t really get to maximize it. I also tend to get sucked into buying new cellphones and similar gadgets.
Now that I’m trying to maintain a budget, I have to be more cautious about the gizmos and gadgets I indulge in. Nonetheless, I will not deny I have some stuff that I want. There’s the iPad of course But that’s just one of it. I also want a camera with a dual lcd, a cooling vest for Bubba, a new flatscreen tv, a personal projector and for my psych related stuff, a finger pulse oximeter and a hand dynamometer. See, things I don’t really need but definitely want!!!
It’s hard to believe that in one week, www.yapatoots.com turns 1! This blog has been very special to me because it was a first for me in many ways. This is the first one I really purchased on my own and set-up, transferred and tweaked with support from very helpful blogger friends! It has also been quite lucky for me. Through this blog, I have won many contests, landed new jobs, made more friends, got to interact with various PR and advertising firms, and even gained a lot of personal life experiences. It truly has been a great year.
I am truly grateful to all those who have supported me and this blog. In celebration of the many firsts this blog has accomplished, I will be launching the first contest hosted by i am woman, hear me rawr! This will coincide with my blogs first anniversary on May 2.
I would also like to take this opportunity to invite you to be a SPONSOR for this contest You can offer any prize you’d like: gc’s, EC credits, web hosting, cold hard cash via Pay Pal, ad spaces, and whatever goodies you would like to share. Of course, for supporting my contest, you will be linked as sponsors in all entries and I will personally allocate ad spaces for your blog in my side bar for the next month For non-bloggers or product sponsors, I will make a post about the product to build buzz around it. As sponsors, you can also still join the contest! Please leave me a comment below or fill up this form to signify your interest in supporting my contest. Staying true to form (I am the queen of last minute after all!), I know this is short notice! Deadline for pledges will be on or before noon of Saturday, May 1, 2010. Contest will be up by May 2!
Thank you again so much to everyone who have made my year of blogging so memorable, exciting, lucrative and life-changing!!!
“Calling all bloggers who want to gain friends in the blogosphere and build links at the same time – BC Bloggers 3 is now open. To join just visit Mommy Diary, read the requirements, and fill out the Application Form. ”
I came across this while chatting with Mommy Rubz, who has been such a great help in getting my blogs off the ground. I instantly knew I wanted to join in. I hope this will be a good way for me to meet more bloggers and to learn more about the wonderful world of blogging
I hope to hear from the other BC Bloggers soon!!!
I woke up with a panic attack this morning.
I remembered my term life insurance premium was due earlier this month and I had completely forgotten about it. I know there usually is a fifteen day grace period but I wasn’t sure that was up yet. I hurriedly sent a text message to my agent (who happens to be a good friend and the mother of my god daughter!) and asked for her advice. She replied: Dear, don’t you remember you completed the last payment already?
Whew! What a relief. My memory has gotten so bad lately and this is just another in a long string of little errors I’ve made. Take for example this afternoon. I went to the grocery and got ready to card my bill. The cashier promptly hands me back my card and says “Ma’am, your card is expired”. This after the credit card company sent me the replacement card weeks ago. Genius! Oh, and have I mentioned that I keep forgetting my login passwords for my accounts??? Gah! Memory gaps are getting so bad.
The worse lapse in memory I’ve noticed, however, is how I can no longer remember my students names easily. There are times the entire term passes by and I still have not memorized their names. To be fair, I know them by face, which is why having seat plans and index cards with their pictures is very important for me.
The decline in my memory kind of freaks me out since we have a family history of Alzheimers. I think though my poor memory is more a function of the fact I have too many different jobs so I tax my resources too much. Nonetheless, I wish I could do something more concrete to help myself out. Any suggestions?