Birthday Blues….

Every year like clockwork, I find myself in the same place, caught between eagerly anticipating my birthday and simultaneously dreading it. It’s not the getting old that gets to me, I think, but more of the idea of facing what it is I’ve been able to do with my life in the past year. Whether it’s been a good year or not, the uneasy feeling comes. And yes, to some degree, it brings with it it’s constant companion, loneliness. Even though I am surrounded by people I love and who love me back,Β  every time around this time of the year I am made painfully aware that I’m getting a year older and I have yet to turn to the next chapter in my life, which is settling down and starting a family. It’s also that I see my peers doing just that and I have yet to make progress. Even my so-called uncomplicated friend is gone, and now I see my world shrinking into my bedroom (unless a blogger event lures me out!). Like I said, it’s not the getting old that makes me feel bad, it’s that. Besides my civil status still remaining the same, it’s status quo too when it comes to my finances. Yup, I’m still spend-thrifty. Is that a word? Okay, okay….I’m still an impulsive shopaholic. I guess to some degree the impulsive-shoppingness in me comes as an off-shoot of the feelings or more succinctly, perceptions of loneliness that I feel *sigh*

Adding to these birthday blues is the fact that my birthday is a Monday and I have class then πŸ™ no fun.

I will try to end post with a happy note though. After all, it is my birthday and the other half of me looks forward to it…I wonder what project I can do for this year after last years autism awareness project. Project Ria perhaps???? Hehehehehe!!!!!

  • #1
    Posted by MerryCherry on March 26th, 2010 at 3:15 pm

    Your blog is very different now and MORE complicated! Lapit na nga pala bday mo πŸ™‚ happy bday!

  • #2
    Posted by yapatoots on March 29th, 2010 at 12:00 am

    thanks che….

    complicated? why complicated!

  • #3

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  • #4
    Posted by redamethyst on May 14th, 2010 at 12:02 pm

    uy, belated Happy birthday. kelan nga ba? hanapin ko na lang sa next posts. hehehe

  • #5
    Posted by yapatoots on May 14th, 2010 at 8:08 pm


  • #6
    Posted by Lourdes Espanol on May 23rd, 2010 at 9:45 am

    You’re not alone. I feel the same way because I’m already in my 30’s and still single. I just pray for strength whenever I’m depressed.

  • #7
    Posted by zoan on May 24th, 2010 at 6:32 pm

    belated happy birthday Ria πŸ™‚ project Ria sounds good to me… πŸ™‚ there is nothing wrong with being single anyway . . hehehe

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